I Am Sad

Hi. I am sad.

I’ve warned you guys that this blog sometimes would be about catastrophe that happens in my life. I honestly don’t mind sharing my thoughts with you guys. So, now I want to talk about something really sad that happened to me recently.

A few months ago I signed up for a student exchange program. There’s a few tests that we have to pass before we can actually get in the program. I think there’s about 3 or 4 tests. Well, I passed the first test. But sadly, I didn’t passed the second one and it made me so sad.

It might sound not that bad, but it is really bad. It’s like the worst thing that ever happened to me. You see, I’ve wanted a part of this program since I was in the 6^th grade and now I’m in the 10^th grade. So, I prepared myself for 4 years and I failed.

The worst part is that this program is for 10^th graders only, which means that I don’t have another chance to get into this program.

I have been crying for 2 weeks. Like literally, every time I remember about this, I can instantly cry. In fact, I am crying while writing this.

I’m sorry. I haven’t quite recovered from this yet. It usually took me 2 days to get over something that doesn’t go as planned. But this one is different. I can’t tell you how sad I am right now. That is why I decided to post this because I hope it will make me feel better. 

Maybe this is all for the best. Maybe I am not ready. I can only hope for the best.

I think on my next post I will write about how to cope with failure hahaha. I don’t know for sure, but, let’s just wait and see.